It's sweet when....

people remember little things about you not because you constantly tell them, but because they're pay attention.

-Unknown

Like when i received a brownies from a far aunty who remember that brownies is one of my favourite food. Like when a friend of mine text me just because Slank will perform on tv. Like when i spent a night with the bestfriend from highschool and they're still call me the 'melancholy' girl. Like when i visited my kindergarten for a college task, and the teachers call my name out loud and asking about my parents, sister and everything. Or even when ayas sent me a picture about 'grow a boyfriend.'

No matter how silly the things are. It still means that they remember you, little things about you. They do remember even you're no longer meet everyday, chat regularly or even apart for a long time.

Familiar faces, familiar places and such things are always makes me feel happy, and save. They remind you that there's a place that will always welcome you with a warm smile. They allow you to trace every memories back then, when things are as easy as a-b-c. In a hard time like this, it's a good thing to know that there's always some people that know you from the beginning, and will be happy to accept you the way you are, right now.

What i mean by hard time is this month, which very full with tasks. They are literally never stop. It's like you want to close your eyes and open it when the term is over. A few days a go, i had lunch with Kyka in my class break. Two hours talking about things that very far from college was very healthy. Yet somehow it also cost me a feeling that i just wanna fly back to highschool days. Someone told me that this feeling will end after i reached the second year in college, but that's not how it works on me. The worst part is there's nothing i can do about it.

All i can do is deal with reality, with the strength that left. You know where the strength come? From those people. Those people like family, who knows you better than anyone. Like mom, who's still listen and give me a hug after i mumbled about everything to her, even in her worst condition. Like the bestfriends, both from higschool and college who laugh with me, or even at me in too many days, too many things, and share the tears, anger and everything.

Eventhough at some point, you realize that some people who you think know you better than anyone actually doesn't. Some people who you think can accept you for the way you are actually can't. Some people who you think can tolerate your worst side actually can't. Then you realize that you're old enough to not want a drama in your life, and accept that maybe there's some people who can't get a long with you, not because they're a bad person. It's just because they can't.

Be grateful for people who stays, who left and even for who just came.

Clarissa Rizky