Brothers and sisters are as close as hands and feet.
-Vietnamnese Proverb
Ramadhan is coming. Yes, the holly month is about to come in a few days. Like other moslem in the universe, i'm really excited. I always love Ramadhan's activities. What i love the most are waking up early to have sahur and break fasting with closest people. Plus, you can't doubt that there are special atmosphere when you got in to a Mosque for Tarawih. At last, the winning day will come at the end of the month and it will always be the happiest day of the year.
You know, it is like the country tradition to visit our relative's grave before the month. In this case, it's my brother's. Have you ever miss someone who you've never met before? Well, i have. Umm, i am.
My brother passed away the day he was born. So apparently i've never met him before. He was born in 1989, 2 years before me. For all these years, i keep thinking that my life would be perfect if he's around. I always dreaming to have someone to care about me like the way brother's do. You know, there are several things that you're parents can't do to protect you. But brothers can.
It's just sometimes i want him to be here for real. Sometimes i want to have a worry call just to ask what time i'll be home. Sometimes i want to have a conversation about my college, friends or maybe love life with a brother. Sometimes i want a nice warm shoulder to cry on. Sometimes i tired to be the eldest, which bring me to a big responsibility. Sometimes i just want to be a little girl with someone's watching, everyday.
Today i watched wizard of waverly on Disney Channel. Suddenly my tears were falling to see how a big brother treat his little sister. The way they argue, the way they annoy each other, the way they forgive, and the way they love each other are just all i ever wanted.
I always jealous to see my friends who have a strong relationship with her (big) brother. Or even to those who don't. I still jealous with them 'cause at least they have a brother. It's not like i don't have. I believe that somewhere he's watching, he's waiting, and he probably wanting to meet me as well.
By the day 6th of September, he'll be 21. He should be very handsome right now, aite? If i could ask you a question Mas, How is it like to live in heaven? It should be very nice to live very close to the Almighty. I can't wait to the day i'll be living with you. Maybe, a thousand years from now. Or maybe tomorrow.
What i'm saying is, God must have a plan for us to seperate for all these years. Maybe next years, or even more. But He gave me a lovely little sister, to show that i can handle life as a big girl. Someday, somehow, our family will be reunited. And i just can't wait for that day.
P.s : For what i've said, for what i've written, for what i've done, for anything that i did that make you feel uncomfortable. Or even for somehow things that make you hurt, I'm sorry. Really, sorry. May this month bring us peace and blessings.
Happy fasting!
and Like i always been, I miss you Mas Romano
Clarissa Rizky
You know, it is like the country tradition to visit our relative's grave before the month. In this case, it's my brother's. Have you ever miss someone who you've never met before? Well, i have. Umm, i am.
My brother passed away the day he was born. So apparently i've never met him before. He was born in 1989, 2 years before me. For all these years, i keep thinking that my life would be perfect if he's around. I always dreaming to have someone to care about me like the way brother's do. You know, there are several things that you're parents can't do to protect you. But brothers can.
It's just sometimes i want him to be here for real. Sometimes i want to have a worry call just to ask what time i'll be home. Sometimes i want to have a conversation about my college, friends or maybe love life with a brother. Sometimes i want a nice warm shoulder to cry on. Sometimes i tired to be the eldest, which bring me to a big responsibility. Sometimes i just want to be a little girl with someone's watching, everyday.
Today i watched wizard of waverly on Disney Channel. Suddenly my tears were falling to see how a big brother treat his little sister. The way they argue, the way they annoy each other, the way they forgive, and the way they love each other are just all i ever wanted.
I always jealous to see my friends who have a strong relationship with her (big) brother. Or even to those who don't. I still jealous with them 'cause at least they have a brother. It's not like i don't have. I believe that somewhere he's watching, he's waiting, and he probably wanting to meet me as well.
By the day 6th of September, he'll be 21. He should be very handsome right now, aite? If i could ask you a question Mas, How is it like to live in heaven? It should be very nice to live very close to the Almighty. I can't wait to the day i'll be living with you. Maybe, a thousand years from now. Or maybe tomorrow.
What i'm saying is, God must have a plan for us to seperate for all these years. Maybe next years, or even more. But He gave me a lovely little sister, to show that i can handle life as a big girl. Someday, somehow, our family will be reunited. And i just can't wait for that day.
P.s : For what i've said, for what i've written, for what i've done, for anything that i did that make you feel uncomfortable. Or even for somehow things that make you hurt, I'm sorry. Really, sorry. May this month bring us peace and blessings.
Happy fasting!
and Like i always been, I miss you Mas Romano
Clarissa Rizky
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